All we wanna do is dance....

Dear LJ;

Sat, 11 Aug 2007 07:51:30 GMT

Im sorry that I neglect you so much. You have been so good to me over these years.
Sometimes i read these old posts and I feel sad for the person I used to be.
I am loving life so much right now!
I have the best boyfriend, I swear I am so blessed and lucky to have him in my life.
and I have the greatest friends, I mean I couldn't be happier.
unless you were with me megan. I am basically going to keep writing in this just to keep you updated, so I hope you are feeling way special right now.
:]
well jessie lies about everything (and you know that) but she got me in trouble because she lied to my mom and I was trying to fix it. but it made it worse. then she swears im on hardcore drugs,
and now she is saying that I ditched britnee, but we just hang out with different people.
when I started going out with ralphie, I made myself promise to change, no more drugs and all that stupid shit I was doing. and my mom just doesnt know how I used to be, and now she thinks that me and ralphie are doing drugs an that i left my old life for him.. In a way a have but in a good way you know? she thinks she knows whats happening but she has no fucking idea.

Sigh.

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 23:53:43 GMT

How nice is it to come home and sleep? Well if anyone knows please tell me.
I am CONSTANTLY working my ass of to get good grades, which I DO HAVE NOW.
but hey my mom doesnt care. She always tells me, You get good grades and we will talk about a car.

well IVE HAD GOOD GRADES, and they havent earned me shit. It makes me soo mad that she doesnt even give a shit about me. she is always so damn busy with work.
I mean all i want is a rabbit gti, now is that too much to ask for?

I guess having good grades is going to help me get out of here.
:)
so ill stop complaining.

megan bigelow,
i love you.
:)

Mon, 04 Sep 2006 21:33:52 GMT

My sister is stalking me.
Shr is CONSTANLY standing over me just staring.
she really knows how to get on my fucking nerves.

summer is over.
weird.
Basically this was the BEST summer ever.
britnee and me man, we are a team.
going to mexico, going to the river
taking the most random trips to no wheree.

and the funny thing is, we were with each other 24-7, and we only got in
one fight.
over food!
haha figures.

I am seriously bummed.

last night was amazing.
Britnee, Paul,Spencer and I all saw thrilleerrrr.
amazing
were going tomorrow too.
and on sptember 16th.
i cant wait

I didnt sleeep all night,
and came home to megans parents in my bed

woo hoo
i slept with my sister in her twin bed.

okay noow im just rambling.
i shall leave.

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 22:38:17 GMT

Wow.
Why do I always forget about this thing?!

so anyways
THE SOUND OF ANIMALS FIGHTING. yea on the 27th.
I cant even begin to tell anyone how FUCKING exictied I am. Im pretty sure I wont be sleeping the night before, becuase of pure excitment.
In other news, Britnee purchased us INCUBUS tickets, in arizona. So we will be driving out there on september 30th. thats gonna be tight too...
SO lately we have been screwing around and going to tylers house.

A couple of weeks ago, our friend asked us to come and stay at his beachhouse in Newport,
so we leave at 2am and head over there. the freeway only has one lane open the whole way there. and to our suprise 3 hours later, we find out his house is in freaking san clemente.
which is WAYYY past fucking newport
it was great though, we went to the beach then all came back and had a 5 person spoonfest in a queen sized bed.

it was marvelous.
This summer could not get any better.

:)

WE LOVE TO WORK!

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 23:47:11 GMT

I just had chiptole.
it was amazing
just thought id let you all know.

me and britnee are sitting here
and we are cool

but like you di dnt know that
last night we went to tylers,
like usual and watched jurasic park.

then everyone showed up
and we went home
hung out with mishal
it was fun
the end
suck my dick
please
hard?

adventure

Fri, 23 Jun 2006 05:11:53 GMT

So me and Britnee got bored

then we danced

Then we got Freaky

Then she tried to Take my Boooty!!

We Invited Jared to come with us.

We sat and talked for a bit.

Then Britnee pretnded to be a Gopher

And a Fireman?!?!

Then Jared hunted/killed some lizards.

Then I gave him a piggy back ride.

THE END</td>

Sat, 04 Feb 2006 22:07:49 GMT

IT SO WEIRD
to not be home
im her ein nor cal with megan
and its soo beautiful
\
maybe instead of moving to NY ill move here

that is if i even bring up my grdes
i dont want to go to orange wood
can someone be on my ass about grades and homework???
please please

i love beign with megan the end

and tonight is her party i cant wait.

on the plane here i sat next to some mexican lady/man that didnt speak
english and they thought i was crying becuase i kept on yawning

ok now im leaving i love you alll

<3333

Ny

Sat, 28 Jan 2006 07:38:08 GMT

strolling throught the city

Moms coffee cup

Train Platform

Poster in the tracks

City

Going by so fast

Old Man's Cane

My dinner

Todd My aunts dog

DS STATUS! i love this thign so much

I ate his eye for $20. It was fantastic

There are more coming

I took these all when I was bored and what not

I may not have been ready then

but i am now and im too confused

7 days till i go to megans its liek i cant wait

but the only think on my mind are my grades

i need them to go away.

Mon, 16 Jan 2006 23:02:13 GMT

Friday

snowboarding with Nick anderson and megan
it was her 2nd time going
so i taught her
it was tighttt
then we went to jack in the box
we had fun though.

Saturday!!

MY PARTY!
it was soo fun
Derick and Dalton wixon... i fucking swear those boys.
They come in and give me lap dances
it was great.
Everyone i cared about was there
through it i see who really cared for me
ditching me for some boys at a show=not cool.

So if you did go, thank you and i love you
i had the best night.

SUNDAY!
So it turns out my uncle butch has a daughter
he never knew about
she has been looking for him for 27 years
and she found us
she drove from santa cruz to visit.
It was a cry fest.

then to the Tyler mall
I made friends with a gay guy
he did my makeup and we talked.

then at 9 pm Nick comes and picks me up
we head to Jamba then Barmes and nobles
i got
,Said the shotgun to the head-by saul williams

it is sooo good.
Im taking mt time to read it
since i got time

New york =thursday-monday

cant wait.

<333
Mykie rae
It was an awesome weekened over all.

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 21:01:07 GMT

Yesterday
snowboarding
was so fun.

Danny and Adrian were there
so we hung out with them
I did this box
and we did jumps and stuff.

but i hurt my elbow.

oh well.
it was so fun though
i tackled this guy that i didnt know
well his friend asked me too
and he ended up knowing me from mt high
ha
but then

we got locked out of the truck
and were sitting there
for 1 hour
sitting in the cold
it sucked

I want to go this week hopefully
my bday is in 4 days
and party is coming
im fucking exciteedddd!!!!!!

<33Mykahhh

oh yea got my hair cut.

I just Cant Get You Out of my Head

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 08:28:29 GMT

Chasing a Boy,
Who doesnt like you
Is worthless.
But hes fun to play with,
and its hard to see them
or hear them talk about other girls.
I dunno

haha wow .
that sounds so wrong
Ive had the best 2 days

yesterday
Hung out with Maya and Ashweeee!
we went to
1.Chipotle
2.Starbucks
3.Redlands mall(old men flirted with us & i played DDR)
4.the indian girl i played with gave me a harder setting so she looked better
5.Target
6.picked up desi.
7.went to a salon
8.desi's house
9.Mayas(bogo bit my butt)
10.Home
what a day

so fun.

TODAY!
1.cleaned room.
2.Jeff came over
3.then Matt annd Cody
4.we hung out and talked
(i really love these boys:)
this is where it gets exciting for us anyways
I always make them food
so we made pasta
but we had nothing
we took tomato paste,chicken stock,chicken,mushrooms,carrots
and allt his stuff and made a HUGE DINNER!
it was soo fun
all in aprons and stuff
then we ate and chilled
wrestled and some other stuff:0
haha

played piano
then i went out to eat for my bday
to
Benihanas
and i learned how to use chopsticks
im proud of myself.

TOMORROW!
=
SNOWBAORDING!

SHOUTOUT!
(YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE)
I BEILVE IN YOU!

Tue, 27 Dec 2005 18:31:24 GMT

I Stole this from Ryann:::::

The Year 2005:

[P E O P L E]
1. Best friends? jackie,ryann,Nick,Jeff davis.
2. Best boyfriend/girlfriend? Ashweeee
3. Lost any friends? yes
4. Gained any friends? a few
5. Met a new good friend? yes.
[P L A C E S]
1. Went out of the country? no
2. Moved? last year(and i hope i never do again)
3. New school? nope
4. How many times on an airplane? 2
5. Road trips? Camping with jackie to Yosemite and Mammoth<3

[Y O U]
1. Have you changed? Yes
2. New look? Monroe? does that count?
3. Any new additions? Chapstick,Energy drinks.
4. Biggest conflict this year? oh god, lets not bring it up.
5. Most depressed time this year? i cant pick one,but probbably when i felt alone

[L O V E]
1. Did you fall in love? No, falling in love=getting hurt.
2. Did you get heartbroken? once
3. Who was your summer love? id rather not say.
4. How many boyfriends/girlfriends this year? 2?? i cant remeber
5. Favorite date? Me, Jackie and John Garcia.
[S E A S O N S]
1. Favorite Season? Winter
2. Least favorite season? summer
3. Good birthday? i didnt do anything
4. Any snow this year? NO!!!:((
5. Highest temperature? in the summer YUCK

[F I N A L Q U E S T I O N S]

Snuck out- Yes
Met a person who will change ur life- Yes
Kept your resolution- no
Got arrested- no
Had a first something- Yup
Drank Alcohol- nope
Smoked weed/drugs-Duh im a crack whore
Did anything illegal- yeshaha
Kissed a boy/girl- duh!
Had a crush- yes
Liked someone who didn't like you- yes
Lost a family member- no
Got bad grades- yes, and i cant bring them up,regret.
Got suspended- nope
Moved states- no
Got on myspace-what's myspace?
Learned an instrument- Got better at piano
Started a band- no
Spent over 1 million dollars- dont think to
Went skinny dipping- HAHAHA YEA
Done something you shouldn't have- everything i do is like that
Kept a secret- Yes
Told a secret- Yes
Done something you totally regret- Yes,
Changed your view on things- yes,school, myself, people,life-itself.this year was my awakening.

Do You dream at all?

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 20:43:47 GMT

So i went to jackies party it was awesome.

it was
Me and ducky=cats
Quazymoto=Carynn
the bell=Amy
Bell from Beauty and the beast=Jackie
Guy with Balloons=Ty foster
Hardcore Scary guy=Devin baze
it was sooo effing fun

I overdosed on Helium, so did ty.
Igot a bad headache and was all ddizzyyy..
ty turned blue

haha

<33333

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 22:28:59 GMT

school is out in 3 min

im sistting here with steph
and we looked through all my livejournals
and photobucket pictures.

sooo fucking bussy this weekend.

bye

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 05:57:43 GMT

man.

Im soo flippen excited.
tomorrow=snowbaording
fri=shopping
sat=jackie party
sun= MAYBE go to LA for Baker christmas skate party with my Ducky.

i dunno

cant wait till tomorrow.
me and John price havent talked in forever
so im pretty happy that hes going with me,
i miss us being really close.

in other news.

I cant wait till next year

January1-maya Lasagna Party
january4-britt 16 bday
Januray11-my 16 bday
January14-duckys bday
january19/23?-New york
JANUARY25?-license???/
Febuary3/5-Up north For MEGAN!!<333
Febuary17-Honorary title show/w/mawwwllieeeee

ATTENTION RYANN:::

LGWLBN PARTY STILL ON OR WHAT?

WE NEED TO SIT AND TALK..
ABOUT IT.

<3333

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 00:24:45 GMT

No one understands

how much

i LOVEEEEEE

my snowboard..!!

ahhh
tomorrow im goign snowboarding with angie josh and brandon & maybe britt.

and then sonic is goign to stay the night!

yay im soo happy right now.

im so flippen cool.

Fri, 02 Dec 2005 02:09:29 GMT

Live journals...

they have so much meaning.
As i look through my friends last posts,
its like
everyone puts there most personal problems
Its kind of strange.

But then its like

Im ALWYAS ALWAYS here for people

but hey
wheres my turn?

i dont get it.

i always feel so left out of everything,

You know how you tell someone something
and they say

I understand

No you dont understand
you are NOT me
and everyone interprets things in diffrent ways

Seriously everyone watch Waking life.
it will fucking chnage your life.

maybe im just scared

i cant take a commitment.

with boys or friends.

I need to

break out of my shell.

and fous on school

Wed, 23 Nov 2005 07:24:10 GMT

Pretty much

today was crazy yet fun

There was an unexpected party at my housee
First

Jackie came

then matt, denice, stephanie, scott, Jeff,Travis,Allen,anthony,Billy, and 4 other random people with Anthony...

Jeff matt and travis played with there "band"

then we all went to michelles house
and

me and matt found a haunted house off Judson

so we all went there
it wasnt scary

so we went to Allens house
and me and matt walked into

THE WRONG house.

weird
we took pictures
(ill post Later)

so we went to Prospect park

that was scary
and we waslked throught he orange groves

and i fell

then matt got the butt runs
and we went to del taco

ran and took pictures of random people

It was alot of fun

you had to be there

[ P.O.S.T S.C.R.I.P.T]

Im sad becuase Jeff leaves tomorrow
till

SATURDAY.

I officially have no one to talk to or
play games with.

:(

<333333

thennn

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 23:38:06 GMT

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 00:22:08 GMT

"Remember that the most Beautiful things in the world are the most useless."
-John Ruskin.

That was in the book i finished 2 days ago and decided to write it in here.

::Thursday::
I came home felt sick.

::Friday::
I was sick, Tried to get my mom to take me to school,
watched tv.
I had a horrible fever, cold sweat, and a sore throat.

::Saturday::
Woke up, Couldnt swallow talk or anything.
Sat and cried.
I wanted to go to the doctor
But my mom is one of those people
that if she DID take me,
and nothing was wrong,
she would give me shit about it until forvever.///.
So I decided to not go.
Slept most of day.

::Sunday::
Mollie calls me and asks to hang out.
I tell her im still sick.
But she doesnt care.

She is the best.

She prances over here with flowers,
movies, and beads to make bracelets.
So then her and my sister
went to the gas staion for huge dr peppers.
I have discovered this new found love for Dr.p//.

::LATER::
I am forced to go to a dinner for my Nana

I guess she hasnt seen my monroe yet
She freaks, she hates it, she yells.
We go to dinner.
I pretty much was in the bathroom the whole time sick.

::today::
I stayed home watched movies,
cleaned.
I dont ever want to back to school.

Im trying to go on rise.
Ill probabbyly have to anyways when the grades come in.

Pretty much I still feel liek shit,

AND

I consumed More ibuprofen then I have my whole life.

PS.

anyone seen the new thrice video?
warms my heart.

<3

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 20:58:45 GMT

Homecoming was gay

and there is nothign more to it.

the end.

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 22:00:53 GMT

Me denice and travis are here after school
for steph to finish a project
then water polo
yayaya

Homecoming in 2 days
Me and Jeff decided that
instead of geting each other crosages and Butiners
or whatever
were gonna get sweat bands.

But
Only because he shaved on side of his head hahah

man
ok well bye

<3

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 01:30:07 GMT

I had a
fucking

B
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A
K
D
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N

last night and cried forever and ever
No joke.
Its like everything i do goes to shit
I feel like i have no one
its shitty shitty shitty
I saw jen & jake this weekend, made me happy
so i didnt go to school today becuase i
just couldnt
oh well
tomorrow is another day

Ps
i miss you megan<3

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 22:52:28 GMT

There is
Something
about holding a red pen,

that makes me feel

soo damn
Powerful

Sat, 15 Oct 2005 03:17:34 GMT

Maya is sitting behind me
and she is coping
EVERY DAMN FUCKING THING THAT I FUCKIGN SAY......

Yea not cooollll
not cool at alll......

but i love herrrr
mann

me and mollie had so much fun yesterday..
and today
i love ya girllll

and ducky she is great
and erin
yay! we love loving each other.

<3

All we wanna do is dance....

Dear LJ;

Sigh.

WE LOVE TO WORK!

adventure

Ny

I just Cant Get You Out of my Head

SHOUTOUT!(YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE)I BEILVE IN YOU!

break out of my shell.

SATURDAY.

BREAKDOWN

Powerful

SHOUTOUT!
(YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE)
I BEILVE IN YOU!

B
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A
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D
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